I can't stop!!!
10.19.05 (6:17 pm) [edit]omos killed myself ystrdy.
got a dream abt him being bashed up by a group of gangsters. evrythin ws a horrible nitemare...i ws wif him n then he suddenly took off wen he saw a group of boys comin our way. i wasn't dat prepared, bt i knw dat i shud stay close 2 him no matter wat. bt we're too late, dey got 2 him 1st. by d tym i reached there, i ws throwing myself upon him tryin 2 shield him away frm d blows. he ws badly injured i knw...n i ws tryin 2 protect him s best i cud. i canot jz lose him like dat. dey din stop punching n i suddenly went mad...it seems like all d blows i received gave me d strength n revived my energy. i lose it!! drew out my Swiss knife n jz lashed 8 dem. i din care nemo, i ws drivin dem away frm him. if im nt mistaken, i tink i killed some of dem.i dono whr d Swiss knife cum frm bt i......i ws determined 2 make him stay alive, it became my responsibility, he's all dat i've got, if i lose him, it's s gud s me dead!!!
dis dream came 2 me again ystrdy...nearly went insane by it. i tink my migraine is coming bek again. i tot i 4got abt it,bt her suden contact realy took me off guard. she resurrected evryting i've tried 2 bury all dis while. ws closing up d hole i dug, but d contents jz spill out!! he sez he cant leave her, she did sumting....i can't tel ne1 including mum. goin bek 2moro, i dono wat 2 do...pretend it din hapen?
nobody is here 2 hlp me, nobody cn hlp me.
I oredi sat 4 my exam!
10.17.05 (4:57 pm) [edit]it is as i hv expected! the exam ws tougher than d previous one. There's a lot of ques i din do n i jz found out dat i din read d measurement correctly. man, i hate dis. bt wen i subtracted d no of marks i'll b losing, i cn stil get an A, provided i don do other careless mistakes. i felt calm during d exam. wonder wat I'll tel d rest...ok? or it's tough! i dono, jz wan 2 4get abt dis exam!
Yahoo, I'm 19!!!
10.16.05 (5:28 pm) [edit]im 19 oredi. i dono wat im goin 2 do in my last yr of being a teenager. my fren from home msged me last nite wishing me a hepi bday n i asked her if she knew my bday from friendster, bt she said no, she remembered my bday bcos i hv d same bday as eminem. wah, how cool is dat! i share d same bday s a rapper.
i got an email frm a fren i don wish 2 stay in contact wif. i deleted his number frm my hp so dat i wont sudenly msg him. he's not anyone special by the way, jz in case u're wondering. so i replied his email...dono wat m i doin. b4 he left, we took a picture 2gede n i stil hv d photos, ws goin 2 throw all of dem cos i don wan 2 remember him at all. i don wan neting 2 hapen, it's too risky. so, i jz dono....
im goin 2 sit 4 an important exam 2moro. wish me luck! bye, gotta go, hv 2 reply my friend's mail.
Man aboard!!!
10.13.05 (2:40 pm) [edit]Lately, I've been getting not enough sleep. I woke up late this morning, 7am!! Wah, I was so shocked! Fortunately, my roommate's alarm went off, otherwise I'll never get up until maybe 8am. Though I slept the whole afternoon yesterday, I still don't get enough sleep. I guess the exams' pressure is mounting on me, I feel so stressed out. Not a surprise, since my first paper would be next Tuesday and I'm still wondering if I did enough preparation. So far, I've done all the past year papers, but somehow I just feel inadequate. I must get an A for my Maths! It's so costly man to resit. I cannot just let mum's money go down the drain.
I finished the Sociology essay last night and handed up to the teacher this morning. Yesterday, I had to apologize to her about not able to hand in my essay. She asked me why and I said that it's because I had to prepare for my Maths exam next week. Luckily she understands. I was so nervous actually and didn't want to tell her, but I felt bad at the same time if I don't hand in the work she gave. Plus, my Sociology is also not that good, so it's rather important for me to do her work. This AS resit thing is definitely taking a toll out of me. I just can't wait for my holidays next Friday. Maybe by getting out of this place, I could concentrate on my preparation.
What's the point of blogging?
10.12.05 (6:52 pm) [edit]Honestly, i don like 2 blog. it feels like an invasion of my privacy. can't believe dat for each entry u posted, u'll get paid! it's like ppl pay u 4 knowing ur secrets.
I'm not getting any younger
10.10.05 (5:34 pm) [edit]I'm goin 2 b 19 nxt mon, 17th oct. man, it'll b d last yr of my teenage life. gues wat, im sitting 4 a vry important paper on d 18th of oct. remember abt d maths paper i say i nid 2 resit? wel, dis is it! tym sure passes by so fast. ok, gotta go...im having clas in 5 minutes tym.